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I’ve given up, i’m giving up slowly, i’m blending in so you won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fatethis one last call that you mentioned is my one last shot at redemption because i know to live you must give your life awayand i’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and i’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the keyand i’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of meand even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise i’m going becausei gotta get outta here i’m stuck inside this rut that i fell into by mistakei gotta get outta here and i’m begging you, i’m begging you, i’m begging you to be my escape.I’m giving up i’m doing this alone nowcause i’ve failed and i’m ready to be shown howhe’s told me the way and i’m trying to get thereand this life sentence that i’m servingi admit that i’m every bit deserving but the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fairCause i’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and i’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the keyand i’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of meand even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise i’m going becausei gotta get outta here cause i’m afraid that this complacency is something i can’t shakei gotta get outta here and i’m begging you, i’m begging you, i’m begging you to be my escape.I am a hostage to my own humanityself detained and forced to live in this mess i’ve madeand all i’m asking is for you to do what you can with mebut i can’t ask you to give what you already gave Cause i’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and i’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the keyand i’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of meand even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise i’m going becausei’ve gotta get outta here i’m stuck inside this rut that i fell into by mistakei’ve gotta get outta here and i’m begging you, i’m begging you, i’m begging you to be my escape.I fought you for so longi should have let you inoh how we regret those things we doand all i was trying to do was save my own skinbut so were youSo were you-